Clear Conclusions

I place
placeholders
for emotions
lost in past
presents
who am I?
lost and forbidden?
lost and forbidden.
saints not knowing
names and places
I place
years in instead
of names
logic
instead of shame
I never realized sooner
I figure it's best to
forbide
clear conclusions
because repeating
might sink
best intentions
because these are
the worst situations
forget
forgive
forbide
forsaken
I have taken
the Joker of Spades
the Jack of Trades