Fighting

I just do not want to exist
to breathe
to keep fighting
for my heart has had too much heartbreak
for I am a plant
that needs watered
a planet that needs moisture
besides the tears from my eyes
because those are all gone
and I cannot be
stressed or worried
because nothing affects me
I keep trying to keep on
but I am falling
behind others

Starbreak

Like a moth
in daylight
like a myth
at starbreak
she fights
and bites
at her sunny
disposition
she would speak
but she barks
for darkness will have
to run after me
for
dimnesss is
like a moth
in daylight
and this would seem
like a myth
at starbreak
if not for
uncovered options

Magenta Truck

You and your magenta truck
given by your father
on your sixteenth
birthday
for being a good little
self centered
hateful christian
though god sees you
he frowns
because he wears
a thorned crown
for everyone
not just those
who believe in it

so say your words
of your simple mind
to those who will listen
but do not think
because they listen
they care
because it is your right
to speak for the right
because we do not want you
near the center

Bed Abuse by Owen

i spend most days in this bed that i abuse,
on these pillows that you can't get used to.
i spend entire days putting off that which can't wait
until i'm knee deep in my own waste.

and i think that i'm justified
'cause i've seen what trying's
done for those
who've tried.

i spend most days in this
bed too small for two,
misplacing time like i've got
it to lose.
i spend endless days
thinking of all the different ways
that we make love.

and i think that i'm justified
'cause i've seen what living's
done for those alive.
(little to none... little to none)

i spend entire days in this bed too
small for two,
on these pillows that you can't get used to.
and that's why i don't sleep at night...
and that's why i don't feel right in this city...
it's more me than you.

Red Water

I want to,
I want to be
crossed over
by waves of red water
crashing into shores
of midwinter's summer
and you'll know when it is done
while others are ran over
you ran me over
you keep running

I want to,
I want to be
build up taller
like a light house
calling out
come home
all you sailors
lost in waves
of red water
for I will be a port
I will be a chest
for all your memories
and dreams
just if I can be seen

Prairie Wheat

Why is this fear coming out of your eyes
Like prairie wheat burning
As it’s embers fade to charcoal
But you still light the fires of others
And bring flames to beds
On your reserves
Surviving weighted restlessness
Eyes from almond
To diamond
Living through all the crimes
Saying
“You are not an enemy
At least to yourself
Or to me
So set your spirit free.”
Then you strip down
To your skivvies
And extinguish
What is left of
Your flames
In the murky waters
Of being
A being
Not lost
To recollection

Another Word

I cannot think of
another word for
pain
so it repeats
day in
and day out
like a heart beat
pain pain
pain pain
pain pain

So I think of
another word instead
sorrow
and it repeats
like the a
leaky faucet
sorrow
sorrow
sorrow

So I do not think
of words
So I just sit
with the beat
of my heart of pain
with thoughts
coming like a leaky faucet
of sorrow
and I roll
from side to side
in a squeeky
waterbed

Why

Why do you leave me
why do they all
why does it lead to liquid cutting
I am no diamond in the rough
strip away this coal heart of mine
strip away the armor of night

Why does love leave me
little but big enough
to wish I could cry
and try to leg go
but too many tears
have been shed
but not enough
because I want to bare it all
to you
so I bare very little
except to those
with long necks

Demons have lovers

one lover fools me
to think things will
go back the way
they were
and drops me like a
needle in the haystacks

another leads me on
thinking there could be a future
when he knew all along
I was just simple,
I fed his need,
it was never about me

But both these demons have lovers
and I'm left with nothing,
over and over
so I am forced
to not open the door,
and go outside
because there is always more pain
when I look
on the other side

Fall of Fall

Roots are so deep
in between the soil
with my head so far up
in the clouds
leafs are falling
I always wanted to be a dandelion
but they etch their intials
on my bark
just as if they would pour
their wine
but it is becoming winter
and the fall was too short
though I am here all the time
hearing the wind
hearing the children
play outside
with their toys
girls and boys
but I am just losing my leaves
with my skin becoming bark

Recently

Recently added
and objects may appear closer
then they actually are
but it had only been a day
before the change
and it is been a week
since it even started
but it is over
but somewhere
recently added
got recently ruined
but there is little a mess
because this just
recently happened

Time passages

Somedays I feel all I am do is waiting
for the past to come back
other days it seems
I am just stalling until the future arrives
but neither come
so I am stuck in the present
bound by all the lies
of the people who
have mattered
and ones who deem themselves
not able
to realize
they are fighting my past
so they better start running
they are compared to my future
so you better start something
to knock me off my balance
and fall to the bottom
of love

Break and Tear

Do not let others in
they will only bring you down
break and tear
eventually
and it is sooner then
you think

So do not let others
mislead or confuse
what you think
and do
because they sway like
new trees
in a hurricane