Encomium

I'm not worthy
of this encomium
it only makes me feel worse
about the mistakes I've made
the people I've hurt
the most
tend to be myself

Flaws no one sees
that everyone makes
why can I not
left loose strings
drop
without guilt
of dropping

Everyone sees me
saint like
but I have sinned
by giving everyone
the benefit

Maybe that is the reason
for this encomium
for I never think of myself
or the reality
of matters
of the heart.